I Dream..

I dream...

I dream of you...though I don really know you , but I dream...

I seems like a fairy tale sometimes....somethin so beautiful but not real

Whenever I see this scene , I dream

When I see that beautiful little girl playin around , I dream..

Sometimes it seems so weired to dream of someone that doesn't exist at all ...!!!

I wonder as I dream..Have I gone mad ??!!!

I dream of somone of no existance ..!!!

I dunno wether you exist and I dunno or you don't exist at all..!!!

Is it a need or a dream ???!!

Is it a fantasy or a reality??!!

Do you exist or not ??!!

Will I ever find you or not??!!

She...

Next to me She sat...
Not like any other She was...

"Have you heard them before ?!!" she asked..
A Strange question it was from the stranger next to me...

Beautiful & simple she was....
An unforgettable look of sorrow in her smiling eyes...
She was trying to start a conversation with me..
But I failed to continue with the others interruptions...

A sense of sorrow could be felt..
She was enjoyin the music as if it was her only shelter from all her problems...
Suddenly..she disappeared...I even couldn ask her for her name...

Waiting for the day when She sits next to me once more....

"w mahma ytool l meshwar..

w mahma t2sa la2dar..

ana makder akoon gheerii..

w ma ba3ref gheer maseeriiii..

nar ya nar ya nar....." Sahara

Why...??!!!!

Why do I write?!!!!
A question I couldn find an answer for !!!!!

Choose The right answer (answers) !!!!!

1-Why Do I write?!!!
a - I write to express ma self ...ma thoughts...ma inside...
b - I write coz I know that you read what I write...so I write to impress you...
c - I write coz I wanna be a writer...
d - I write coz it's an essential need in ma life...
e - I write coz that'a a gift that God gave me lately...
f - I write coz I can't draw using a pencil so I draw using words.....

2-How Do I write?!!
a - I write what I feel
b - you are ma inspiration so I write when somethin happens..
c - I write when I'm in a bad mood ...
d - I pretend and makeup words and phrases that show me as a real cultured person..!!!!

.....& a fairy tale it was !!!!!!

Reading a fairy tale is onething & being a part of a fairy tale is a totally different amazing thing !!!!!!!

I dunno what to say coz probably the english vocabulary is totally different from the emotions vocabulary..

I shall jus pick 2 moments in today fairy tale to describe...

When you were jus reading the fairy tale....
I could see you smile..
I could hear you laugh..
I could see you cry ..
I could hear your "sniffff...."
I could see your invisible tears..
I could hear your heartbeats..
I could see the symptoms...
I could hear your breathe..
I could feel your amazement..your "tatne7a"
I could feel your soul....
I could feel you

When you showed me your special diary...
You showed me something you never showed to anyone before!!!!
You made me so special...
You considered me a special person in your life...
It was too much for me..more than I deserve..


It was so strange how things went ...jus like in fairy tales!!!

Happy fairy tale ....ma fairy!!!

Jesus Lover f ma soul

well...they always told me "there're things that ought not to be told but ought to be lived..!!!"
I couldn't understand it at first.!!!!
BUT....Finally...
I lived it , I lived YOU Jesus..!!!
There are things that really need to be felt not to be understood...
Things that need to be experienced...
I experienced YOU....
I experienced when all things are down and YOU come from no where makin things go as perfect as they had never been before...
I experienced when YOU arrange for something that was impossible and goes perfect...
I experienced when 'am totally down and YOU come and raise me up ....
I experienced when I think of someone or something and you bring him/her or it to me before I even speak it !!!!!!


Please always guide me and take control of ma life..coz if YOU do...things will be totally different !!!
I jus need YOU to help me coz 'am a weak human "I do believe; help me overcome my unbelief!"

Jesus...YOU're truly the lover of ma soul
Happy Valentine ma Lord...

Thanks ....

Thanks ....

Thanks for ma health...
Thanks for ma voice...
Thanks for ma eyes...

Thanks for ma talent....
Thanks for ma creativity..
Thanks for ma deep thoughts..
Thanks for ma words...
Thanks for ma mind...
Thanks for ma dreams...
" Shokran l man sakab 3alya mn ro7ehi...
W aghdak 3alya b gamee3 mawahebi...
Yadaan toda3b awtaar 7amdehii..
Shaftaan tashdo b galaal magdehi..
3aynaan taraho f gamal khalikatehii " PTL

Thanks for Salvation
Thanks for Dyin for me
Thanks for ma LIFE

"Shokran L Elahn nazal 3an 3arshehe
W tagasad l feda2yy w wolad f mezwade.
W ta2alm b syattn lekay yori7ani
Robetta b 7ebaln 7atta yo7arerani
Lotema 3oryanan kayma yastorani
W kaaam 7atta 7ayatoh yamna7ani..." PTL


" Were YOU the sun setting in the sky?!!!!
The dance I felt that night by the riverside...
Are YOU the stars glowing in the dark?!!!
The melody that's risen in ma heart..

I sing to YOU for YOU're worthy of this before your throne..

Are YOU the life rushing through ma veins?!!!
The coldness on ma face everytime it rains *
Is that YOU I hear humming in the breeze ?!!!!
Ya I feel it YOU ...feel so free....

I sing to YOU for YOU're worthy of this before your throne.. " SOMM - DTS Perth


* [ Showering Blessings...huh ;-) ]


I thank you ...
For all what YOU've done, all what YOU are doing & all what YOU will do!!!!

drawing...

alone I sat in that corner of the forge...
it was not a clean place but at least it was a place were I can rest
I always dreamt of being something important...
An armor or a shield for the soldiers....or even a sword for the king!!!
Maybe a box to keep the jewellary....
I was waiting for the day when that old man in the forge would shape me as a sword and give me to a famous king or even a famous roman commander....


It was that time of the year where many people came to buy stuff like dishes and cups from the forge...It was the feast of the Passover.
It was that day when a young man came and asked for some cups as he was preparing for the passover meal.... but as it seems he didn't have much money...
The old man in the forge kept searching until he saw me in the corner ...he then took me and told the young man to come after some time so that he could finish...
The old man took me ....put me in the furnace.....I was happy beacause I knew I was going to be a sword...the furnace hurts but I shall be a sword in the end...
But.....
The old man took me out...shaped me as a little cup....
He then gave me to the young man....
I was disappointed and didn't want to spend ma life as a silly cup!!!



It was that night....there was a man...a man not like any other man I saw before..
HIS face was shining with love and peace....
HIS tender voice was a musical symphony of love....
HE was sitting with others around him....They were eating
Suddenly....
HE took bread...gave thanks and broke it and gave it to his disciples saying "Take and eat ; this is my body."
Then HE took me...
HE was holding me so tenderly and softly....
HE put his lips on me and tasted....then HE offered me to the rest saying "Drink from it , all of you. This is my blood..."


I became his blood ....
I became his son...
HE created me from nohting and made me his son....


Here I am to worship..Here I am to bow down.. Here I am to say that you're my God
YOU're all together lovely...all together worthy...........

afraid....

well 'am afraid...

afraid of not calling
afraid of calling...
afraid of hearing your voice...
afraid from you .!!!

afraid you won't answer...
afraid you will answer!!!!
dunno if you answer what will I say....
afraid of saying something that hurts you..
afraid of not saying something that pleases you..

'am afraid of losing you

Molto Espressivo..

"I want it more molto espressivo"

gettin into da mood I close ma eyes..

Farewell..

I can see nothin but that scene...

you sittin in fronta me...tears freeezin in your eyes

you do nothin except starin at me...

your eyes are an ocean...keepin many secrets...

as if time had stopped at this moment...

I cry..I cry in fronta you...

I don wanna lose you....

I love you more than what you can ever imagine....

This piece of music is made for you...

I can feel you in every note..in every piannissimo....in every "molto espressivo"..

you're still you....

dunno who's fallin to pieces..you or me...
you ...the broken soul screamin for help from behind the bars of self torture...
me...the one falling to pieces each time I see you like that while I'm totally paralised with nothin to do
I dunno wut to do ...I never wanna lose you...


"And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
Cuz I'm in Love With you"

dunno why but when I heard it I remembered an old day...
an old day where you sat in fronta of me starin...

I shall always say it...You 're still you...

"I love you coz you are who you are...." The Alchemist

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