Psalm 142..

I cry aloud to the LORD;I lift up my voice to the LORD for mercy.

I pour out my complaint before him;before him I tell my trouble.

When my spirit grows faint within me,it is you who know my way.

In the path where I walk men have hidden a snare for me.

Look to my right and see; no one is concerned for me.I have no refuge; no one cares for my life.

I cry to you, O LORD;I say, "You are my refuge, my portion in the land of the living."

Listen to my cry, for I am in desperate need;rescue me from those who pursue me,for they are too strong for me.

Set me free from my prison,that I may praise your name.Then the righteous will gather about me because of your goodness to me.

Weight Of The World....

A heavy burden...
A weight of sadness , pain , disturbance & emotions...
As if it's the weight of the world..
BUT....
That weight turns out to be....ME..
I am YOUR "weight of the world"..!!!!!
Why ?!!
Why G ...?!
Is that the reason u created me..to become her "weight of the world"?!!
I wish u didn create me...I wish i had no existance ..
I failed to become a source of happiness in her life...but i never imagined to become her source of pain...
It's so painful...
Being someone's "weight of the world" is indeed my " weight of the world"....


"Feels like the weight of the world
Like God in heaven gave me a turn.

Freefall, freefall, all through life" Evanescence



De Profundus Clemo Ad Te DOMINE......

An Angel...

An Angel from up above..
An Angel in the form of little girl..
Nothin but innocence in her eyes..
A lovely smile on her face..
Her joyful presence makes u forget all the pain inside..
Hangin to your neck and shoutin makes u feel as if u want nothin else from the world...
Sittin near u and leaning her head on your shoulder makes u want these moments to last forever...



I love u ma angel..

.....

echoes...
ur voice echoin in ma ear for days ...
echoin with one word..
BUT...
"i believe ...BUT"
"i enjoyed...BUT"
why BUT....?!!
well since that day i could hear nothin but ur voice echoin...
'am still shocked...
i can't get it
maybe 'am not that perfect for you after all...
maybe i didn give it the right way...
maybe...
many maybe's and whatif's that lead to nothin ..
same result after all...
i wish nohin now other than one thing ...
you become happy and comfortable...
ur happiness was and still my objecive after all...with or without me..
coz i really care for you....
coz i really till now ..love you ma fairy

Dreams..

"It's the possibility of having a dream come true that makes life interesting ..." The Alchemist - Paulo Coelho

My Dream....

In paradise...
Sittin in a bungalow...
Nothin but natural beauty...
Surrounded by mountains & forests...
The blue sea in front of us ..
The moon and the stars covering us...
Breeze movin smoothly through ur dark hair....
Sittin beside me , leaning ur head on ma shoulder...
"come wut may?!!"
"Forever may not be long enough....."
"why me...?!!"
"Coz you are YOU.....A fairy among humans...."

Release him....

why 'am i keeping him inside ?
why 'am i keeping him behind the bars ?!!
Bars of despair , dissapointement & delusions..
Noone on earth shall prevent the artist within from coming up to the surface ..
It happened once but it shall happen nomore ...
It's time to realease him
Release the real me ...
The creative artist within...
No more bars..
Wash the soul with every word written , with every musical note played & with every photoshoot finished...
Forget all the pain inside and through it all away ...

"Let your soul dance ....." Sahara

Only Hope...

"Atfal sghaar 3aysheen blnaar..
b2lobhom khoof mn moot w damar..

3ayzeen y7lamo ..
wana wayahom akid..
wel 7elm b3eed b3eed..
3ash2een l amal...
wana wayahom ba2ool..
3ala feen bnkoon bnkoon..." Sahara Band...

Back....

well it has been more than 20 days since i last wrote anything ...
Ana ghaleban neseet ezay amsek l alam wezay akteb ..
Fakart keteer akteb tany wala kefaya keda..
Tab akteb 3an eeh
Akteb 3an l " kheyana " wala akteb 3an " kayf takhsar a3az asdeka2ak f yoom wa7ed " wala akteb " ta3alam l kheyana bdoon mo3alam " !!!!
Balash dool ...akteb 3an ezay momkn ymoot l amal wel 7ob wala akteb 3an "shabaab 7araket l tas7ee7 " aw l " nabda " zy ma bysamo nafsohom.......
7agat keteer awy 3ayez akteb 3anha ...
Bas aham 7aga enny hakteb
Lazm akteb
Law makatabtesh hamoot mn kotr l 7agat elly gowa elly 3ayza tetla3 w mesh betetla3 fa ghaleban hanfeger....
Ana hakteb wutever happens
Ana akteb ezan ana mawgood
Whatever happened fel fatra elly fatet ana lazm akteb
Tab wel 7agat l adeema a3mel feeha eeh ?
Well ana shebh afalt l blog l adeem coz kefaya 3aleeh keda awy
kefaya elly khesertoh besabab enny knt ba7awel ab2a bany adam
Ana lesa 3ayez ab2a bany adam
Bas et3alemt bardo enny never to express ma thoughs and emotions to anyone ..specailly the closest persons to u ...
Finally 'am back lelsa7a w hakteb wutever happens whoever goes away...

A final word leeky
Away mn kol 7aga 7asalet 3ayzek te3rafy en for me " You're Still You"
A fairy among the humans...
Love ya