Thanks ....

Thanks ....

Thanks for ma health...
Thanks for ma voice...
Thanks for ma eyes...

Thanks for ma talent....
Thanks for ma creativity..
Thanks for ma deep thoughts..
Thanks for ma words...
Thanks for ma mind...
Thanks for ma dreams...
" Shokran l man sakab 3alya mn ro7ehi...
W aghdak 3alya b gamee3 mawahebi...
Yadaan toda3b awtaar 7amdehii..
Shaftaan tashdo b galaal magdehi..
3aynaan taraho f gamal khalikatehii " PTL

Thanks for Salvation
Thanks for Dyin for me
Thanks for ma LIFE

"Shokran L Elahn nazal 3an 3arshehe
W tagasad l feda2yy w wolad f mezwade.
W ta2alm b syattn lekay yori7ani
Robetta b 7ebaln 7atta yo7arerani
Lotema 3oryanan kayma yastorani
W kaaam 7atta 7ayatoh yamna7ani..." PTL


" Were YOU the sun setting in the sky?!!!!
The dance I felt that night by the riverside...
Are YOU the stars glowing in the dark?!!!
The melody that's risen in ma heart..

I sing to YOU for YOU're worthy of this before your throne..

Are YOU the life rushing through ma veins?!!!
The coldness on ma face everytime it rains *
Is that YOU I hear humming in the breeze ?!!!!
Ya I feel it YOU ...feel so free....

I sing to YOU for YOU're worthy of this before your throne.. " SOMM - DTS Perth


* [ Showering Blessings...huh ;-) ]


I thank you ...
For all what YOU've done, all what YOU are doing & all what YOU will do!!!!

drawing...

alone I sat in that corner of the forge...
it was not a clean place but at least it was a place were I can rest
I always dreamt of being something important...
An armor or a shield for the soldiers....or even a sword for the king!!!
Maybe a box to keep the jewellary....
I was waiting for the day when that old man in the forge would shape me as a sword and give me to a famous king or even a famous roman commander....


It was that time of the year where many people came to buy stuff like dishes and cups from the forge...It was the feast of the Passover.
It was that day when a young man came and asked for some cups as he was preparing for the passover meal.... but as it seems he didn't have much money...
The old man in the forge kept searching until he saw me in the corner ...he then took me and told the young man to come after some time so that he could finish...
The old man took me ....put me in the furnace.....I was happy beacause I knew I was going to be a sword...the furnace hurts but I shall be a sword in the end...
But.....
The old man took me out...shaped me as a little cup....
He then gave me to the young man....
I was disappointed and didn't want to spend ma life as a silly cup!!!



It was that night....there was a man...a man not like any other man I saw before..
HIS face was shining with love and peace....
HIS tender voice was a musical symphony of love....
HE was sitting with others around him....They were eating
Suddenly....
HE took bread...gave thanks and broke it and gave it to his disciples saying "Take and eat ; this is my body."
Then HE took me...
HE was holding me so tenderly and softly....
HE put his lips on me and tasted....then HE offered me to the rest saying "Drink from it , all of you. This is my blood..."


I became his blood ....
I became his son...
HE created me from nohting and made me his son....


Here I am to worship..Here I am to bow down.. Here I am to say that you're my God
YOU're all together lovely...all together worthy...........

afraid....

well 'am afraid...

afraid of not calling
afraid of calling...
afraid of hearing your voice...
afraid from you .!!!

afraid you won't answer...
afraid you will answer!!!!
dunno if you answer what will I say....
afraid of saying something that hurts you..
afraid of not saying something that pleases you..

'am afraid of losing you

Molto Espressivo..

"I want it more molto espressivo"

gettin into da mood I close ma eyes..

Farewell..

I can see nothin but that scene...

you sittin in fronta me...tears freeezin in your eyes

you do nothin except starin at me...

your eyes are an ocean...keepin many secrets...

as if time had stopped at this moment...

I cry..I cry in fronta you...

I don wanna lose you....

I love you more than what you can ever imagine....

This piece of music is made for you...

I can feel you in every note..in every piannissimo....in every "molto espressivo"..

you're still you....

dunno who's fallin to pieces..you or me...
you ...the broken soul screamin for help from behind the bars of self torture...
me...the one falling to pieces each time I see you like that while I'm totally paralised with nothin to do
I dunno wut to do ...I never wanna lose you...


"And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
Cuz I'm in Love With you"

dunno why but when I heard it I remembered an old day...
an old day where you sat in fronta of me starin...

I shall always say it...You 're still you...

"I love you coz you are who you are...." The Alchemist

plzz help me to help you

back to the future

when I was a child I used to watch startrek,andromida,.... all these science fiction stuff...
There was a time when they went through a black hole or a worm hole and they found themselves in a prallel universe....
mm...
Parallel universe is a universe just like ours with the same earth and same ppl...i.e the same earth contains a replica of me who may have lived my life or who may have lived a differnt life....
It was all yesterday when I was in fronta of the dull machine waiting..
What if I travelled to another universe...??!!!!
well it can't happen here as it seems..but why not try a parallel universe....
Are we gonna meet there or not?!!
How will be the first meeting?!!
I was havin strange ideas about it...

Well let's see the other me on the other earth from a closer look...
My family never left the gulf back to egypt and I was raised up there
I only came back for the college studies only...Then I went back to the gulf where there was a job waiting for me .....
In da company I had some work to do in egypt so I had to go back to egypt...
Well the company was dealing with some persons in egypt to represent it in the egyptian market ....I was the one for the negotiations...
The egyptian partner was an engineer...
Well the negotiatins went fine and there was that part where he invited me to his home for a sort of an egyptian lunch ...
Well ..the most thing I don like is an inviation like this ....but I had to
I dunno even what to wear or what to take as gift with me....

When I entered the apartement , you were there....
I dunno why but at first I didn like you at all ...I thought you were like any other teenager girl with another empty mind....
You too didn seem to like me....I seemed for you as a tough realistic nonemotional man whose all concern is business and work ....
During the talk it was as if you were waiting for any mistake so that you can start an arguement...
He is havin a phone call so he leaves us alone...
At this point I tell you I don like...you tell me the feeling is mutual!!!
We have a discussion starting from this common ground...
Dunno how but he comes back to be amazed to see that we are havin a nice discussion and smilin and havin fun.!!!!
Actually he couldn't get it coz only half an hour before he left us arguing(almost fighting) not smiling !!!
In only half an hour all the ice melt and the gap disappeared....
Then we.........
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The End






( LV...You were true...
There is nothin like it coz it's a true one...
Btw..ya bakhtek ...'am really happy for you )

can smell it.....

well...I can smell it ...
I can smell the scent of love whenever it is present in the place

It was a normal outing with a group of friends...
Suddenly I was smelling it so strongly....
More strange that there were no clear or obvious signs of its presence...
She was almost amazed when I told her "How could you ever notice it?!!!!!"

Dunno...
Maybe coz I became used to it so I could figure it out so easily...
Maybe coz I tried it once so I could easily smell it....
Maybe coz that's the only thing I'm searching for so strongly so I could spot it in any surrounding...

you were right really..
All my problems are ending up to love..
Can I really find it?!!!

drawing....

well ...since I can't draw usin a pencil I will draw using words instead....





A dark night...
The moon was covered by the dark clouds...
Streets are empty....
Noone in the streets of the old town except these two strangers...
It was late and all the town went to sleep....
The strangers were alone with no place to spend the night ....
Rain drops fallin down makin it worse and worse for the strangers



let's get a little bit closer....

Rain is gettin heavier and heavier
The old man takes of his robe to wrap it around the shoulder of the girl on top of the donkey to protect her from the heavy rain....
They wait in a small alley waitin for the rain to stop....
Pain...Sudden pain that comes and goes like waves....
The old man knocks the door of a near house askin for a place where the girl can give birth to her baby....
One house...two houses..three houses.....No place can take them and no one can help the girl


Watching all this scene from the window of his small motel...he got deeply touched...
Want to offer help but don't know how since he got no room in the motel...
Suddenly he remembers the old manger in the back of the motel....
He knows it's not a clean place...but he decides to offer help and it's up to the strangers to accept it or decline it....
His wife looks at him with a strange look...a man offering a manger for strangers to spend a night in ?!!!


The man wears his robe and goes out to the old man to offer his help...
The wife watches from the window to see two men talkin under the heavy rain ...a young girl in great pain riding a donkey in the alley in front of the motel...
The old man accepts to stay in the manger...


The young girl gives birth to a beautiful baby boy...
The boy was cryin...she takes him...wraps him in a clean piece of cloth...
She looks to the baby...the baby stops cryin....she smiles to the baby who smiles in return....
The holds the baby and sings him a lullaby in order to sleep....
The baby falls asleep like a little angel.....
She kisses her baby....she kisses her God...


Wind roaring strongly....Raindrops over rooftops...
A symphony of amazement.....
Angels in the sky staring in amazement....
They can't believe it....
The Lord is sleeping in a manger among sheep and cows.....
The Lord couldn't find a place and accepted to be born in a manger!!!!!!